a couple weeks ago i had aninteresting weekend near greensboro was at a dungeon and got to meet alot of interesting people. had some good food and such. i also got to see a scene that was quite interesting. 2 Domme's had this boy tied up with his arms suspende overhead and his body totally exposed. they flogged and spanked him for nearly 20 minutes then they started the cbt had i believe 5 pair of cloverleaf clamps attached to his veither regions then all of a sudden they jerked them all off at once. it was amazing they continued for about another 15 minutes this boy was totally drained

last night at the crucible i was most fortunate to be asked and i cordially accepted to be in a scene with aliceslalaland she was very respectfull she went over my limits and was kind enough to ask what kind of scene o preferred. i told her whatever she wished we spoke about flogging and i gave her my newly aquired floggers they ended up being a little too heave and she quickly got some of her own she had with her she showed them to me and i noticed right away how evil one could be just by looking at it she started out slow getting more intense as the scene went on she alternated between a softer more sensual flogger and one that was quite evil which brought me nearly to my knees where i should be anyway before such an amazingly Dominant woman. the scene got so intense i broke a set of handcuffs which we both laughed about thakfully they were mine who knows where the scene would have went had they been hers that i had broken. the scene continued for nearly an hour or so it seemed her fingernails slowly scratched across my back several times heightening my sences her voice echoed in my mind with every word she spoke checking in on me to see how i was doing the scene ended and she kindly put some beautiful smelling lotion on my back a citrus fragrance i believe. then as she was getting ready to leave i helped her with her shoes which i was still flying pretty high i mistakenly put the shoe on the wrong foot which i quickly correctly and then knelt before her. i then was intooduced to her well not so little friend which was wrapped in a towel it made my heart race and my eyes got big as saucers. this really made my night complete and made me feel like a sub again i cant thank her enough. she truely is addictive and i am addictive i would submit to her anytime. thanks for making this night so memorable.

first and foremost i want to thank everyone for the kind words used in the memorial and the money they donated it really meant alot to me and i was just proud to have been muffin's boy even if for just a short time. she was very special to me as she was to others and it showed with the support and words spoken about her. she was truely loved and i will do my best to honor her through my actions as she would want me to do and i hope that others will as well i know she would have wanted that. a special thanks to frasier and susan i cant thank them enough as well as the staff they worked very hard to honor her memory and she would be proud. also i would like to say that i didnt know the others that had passed but i hope their memories will live on as well. a special thanks goes out to duke and the rest of my leather family gwydeon katherine camile putty mimi roach and jan  thank you alicelala you have been nothing short of a true friend and you have my utmost respect. thank you everyone and hope to see you at camp,

i can't put into words how much all of you meant to her and how much she loved everyone. i thank everyone for their support and kind words. it means so much to me and duke we appreciate everything we will keep you posted .  

i am sorry to report that she has passed away in transport to the hospital. i want to thank you all for everything and all the suport you have given . i don't know what else to say. i will try to post again later

to start off i woke up sick as could be called into work . then went to the hospital to find out i had the flu plus my blood sugar was way up and was dehydrating. muffin is still in the hospital and because of the flu i can't go see her. any more b-days like this and i am not getting any older

well everyone the muffin is doing better the phneumonia is getting better and she should soon be able to have her surgery and start her road to recovery. she is taking several steps towards managing her pain and getting herself off the as i call it the happy juice aka painkillers. the doctors seem optomistic and so does she. she seems to keep in good spirits but has some bad days as well as should be expected anyone who has been through as much as her is gonna have those days. i left her this evening with DUKE i got to go home and get in my bed i feel bad that she has to stay there while i get to go home i wish i could trade places with her and take her pain and anxiety i hate to leave her there i wish i could just stay and never leave. she is eating a little better and has been doing good keeping her sugar levels under control her vitals have been consistantly good . i cant thank everyone enough for their prayers and concern i wish everyone the best and a safe and sane as well as a happy new year. 

Current Mood: good

she has been moved out of icu to her old floor. she still has phneumonia but is slightly improving she does not have a blood clot .. she is getting better i can tell by the grumpyness and attitude she is showing which i love.. her appetite is returning which is a good sign. i thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers cards flowers and such and she thanks you as well. i am gonna try and get her intetrnet bound so she herserlf can make a post tomorrow if she feels like it. til then everyone be well and be safe.

Current Mood: peaceful

the latest news is they do not believe she has a blood clot but she still has phneumonia. last night i went to see her before work and got her to eat some of her dinner and drink some orange juice to help raise her blood sugar levels. i spoke to he mom today and was told she was more alert and was eating a  little more . i will not be able to visit her this evening but i will keep posting as i get more information. i am gonna go for now to get more rest for work tonight .